致：我最关心的一个朋友

生命里我们有很多的理想，梦想，幻想，希望，渴望，愿望，都是我我们想要的。

理想，梦想，幻想，希望，渴望，愿望，是可以努力去追求。当然，每个人都希望会达到自己所愿，但是世界是现实的。不是每一个人都能达到自己所愿。如果每个中五学生毕业后都要做医生，那以后谁来教育孩子？谁照顾治安？

我不是要你消极，是要你能理智。愿望和理想是可以追求的。只要你努力，尽力，得到获得不到不重要，因为你努力过。我说过不要去在意长久，只要曾经拥有。人生要这样才会有满足感，生活才会快乐。

现在在你眼前有一条幸福路，只等待你点头。点个头，你就能让忧愁变成快乐。只要你快乐，那世界就能充满欢笑...给自己快乐的机会吧！只要心里记得曾经努力，曾经拥有，足够了！

Fail

I spend two more days in Semenanjung before i came back. I suffered serious migraine and fever for few days include the two in Semenanjung. It was miserable. I can only spend time on bed and I travel back home with a weak body.

Today I find myself feeling better so i decide to go out have breakfast outside. I haven't tasted any local food since i came back and this is the opportunity i should not lose. I ordered a plate of kampua and a cup of hot milo. Kampua arrive faster than my drink.

I tasted the kampua... Uh, fail!

I tried the milo... Damn, diluted sugar!

Oh, man! When I'm back every food here taste so bad. I might be enjoying too much "good food" in west coast until these local food let me feel so bad.

I might need some time to fit in...

Guiness Book Of Records - The Most Absurd Occupation in the World

Read the news below:

Pahang hires pensioners to battle bloggers

TEMERLOH, Nov 23 (Bernama) – The Pahang government has appointed three pensioners as bloggers to thwart slanderous comments and allegations posted on the Internet.

State Information, Science, Technology and Innovation Committee chairman Datuk Mohd Sharkar Shamsudin said the bloggers, who would be paid allowances, would be provided with computers and the Internet access in their homes.

The pensioners can capitalise on their experience to explain the actual situation to the people besides providing feedbacks and opinions to the government, he told reporters after attending the Senior Citizens Day organised by the Pahang Chapter of the Malaysian Government Pensioners’ Association here today.

“More bloggers will be appointed. We value pensioners’ thoughts in our efforts to improve the state’s economy and prosperity and unity of the people,” he said.

Pahang Menteri Besar Datuk Seri Adnan Yaakob told the state legislative assembly recently that he was slandered by a blogger.

– Bernama

You see, Malaysia is becoming more and more ridiculous in politics. They even use the hard earn taxes to pay for bloggers. For bloggers around the world, there is a new job waiting in Malaysia. Work from home, RM2-4K, time is flexible, will be provided with computer and internet access.

Why the government is taking such precautions? Its funny... I'm wondering someday later we might find government hiring people going to coffee shop to thwart slanderous comments among the customers. I'm so interested with these works, subsidiary coffee, flexible hour, simple work, high pay... Most important is only can get in Malaysia!

Malaysia is Bolehland indeed!

味道

有人说：

之前他一直要走。现在他要走了，看他的表情好像有很多味道却又说不出来。什么味道都有，都不知是好是坏。如果同事都不是很好，可以拍拍屁股就走，偏偏这里的同事就是个个都很好，走都不舍。

在不对的时间遇上对的人

上天作弄人，让我在不对的时间遇上对的人。我不相信“命中注定”。我相信什么事都要争取，要努力才会得到收获，但有些事真的是在人类控制能力的范围外。我遇到你，生命多了色彩。谢谢你给我的色彩和快乐。现在唯一能做的就是希望上天能制造出奇迹，安排一段对的时间给我们。试问“何时才是对的时间？” 我也不知道，因为我在手掌心被玩弄。

希望奇迹出现吧！

*加油，努力，开心，健康...祝福你

TENG你可以不可以不要走

回答这个问题的时候，我很矛盾。我就像在十字路口徘徊，不知要怎么做选择。

可以，我不走了
这里有很多回忆。这两年里遇到很多人与事。每分每秒发生的事都还如昨天这般清晰。虽然当初来的时候有一百般不愿意，但是这两年里认识了很多人，遇见了很多事，最重要的是能找到很多知心朋友，关心我的人。我打破了对这里人的负面思想。的确，爱在人间。我有很多可以谈心的朋友，最不舍得离开的原因也是因为他们。

不行，我必须要走
这里始终不是我的地方，我始终要回到我原来的地方。现在时机来了，我如果不把握机会，那在十年后我还会有同样的机会吗？我的人生目标不在这里，所以我必须离去。让我离去是让我有一片更广阔的天空。

“TENG你可以不可以不要走”， 我只有默默不回答，因为我自己也还没找到答案...

但是我想告诉你，我不舍得走...因为你...

How do i feel?

Many asked me: Do you feel happy?

I got my transfer back to Sarawak after i met with an officer in Putrajaya. He gladly approved my application. He said I am needed back in Borneo. Yes, I'm happy. I'm happy because I'm near home, I'm at my place of birth, I'm with my family and friends. And yet, I'm not all happy. To be honest, I'm sad to leave. I face this dilemma when I started to apply for my transfer.

I'm sad to leave all the friends I got since I first came here two years ago. Two years already pass by in vain. When I sit alone at home, my mind is thinking on all the faces who helped me, smiled with me... Tears are dropping inside my heart.

I don't know how is the best way to thank all those who appeared in my life all this while. They gave me lots of courage and support. How I wish I can just bring them back to my homeland. This two years are not easy, and everyone of them helped me through.

Lim & Lee, thank you for letting me stay at your place when I first came. You two will be the person I miss most after I leave. When I'm typing this, I'm dropping my tears... Love you two and please take care. I won't forget all your help and support.

For all the other friends out there, I won't forget all the sweet and sour we had together. Best wishes for everyone of you. Pay me a visit someday when you happen to come to Sarawak.

Thank you and take care everyone...

生命的艺术

人的生命里要作出很多很多的抉择。每个选择都有得有失；有满足也有后悔；有快乐也有悲哀。相同的是在作出了选择，就会在生命画上一个新的花纹。每个不同的选择，会在生命烙上不同的花纹。每个人都在为自己的生命画出精致的花纹。生命结束的时候，发现生命所经过的一切原来是一幅画，一幅生命的艺术作品。

生命是短暂的。要让自己活得充实有意义，自然就有一幅精致的作品让自己来回忆和珍惜。

I am busted

I got an alert from my neighbor while I was at my working place this Saturday. She told me my house had been break in by some men. I decided to walk back home and take a look on what is happening. I never thought anything bad will happen so I'm all alone. I open my front gate, then went in to open the front door when a dark and tall looking man open my door from inside and had a pistol heading straight to me. Another two men "fly" over the fence and busted me. I was handcuffed. It was like those in the Cantonese drama, much real than that. You can imagine what happen if you watch lots of police movies.

They took out a card and say they are police. I didn't really have chance to see the card. They just show it like showing something they don't want me to see. It was a little hard to believe they are police until their officer, a tall Chinese man came. Okay, good news is my house is not broken in by some crooks. Absurd news is my house being broken in by bunch of polices, breaking my front door's lock and look through all my cupboards. They suspect me for producing drugs and keeping guns. Haha... what do a teacher need gun for?

Everyone is coming and everyone already know that I am "taukeh kilang syabu" and "guns collector", highest gratitude to the polices. They could not found anything, except for some cane I use for canning students. Thats the only weapon I kept.

I was questioned then brought to nearby police station for urine test amd get a negative result. Last but not least, i had some problems with the house owner because the door was broken and both parties don't want to pay for the repair. The police should pay for it because I am so innocent.

What an unlucky day... Sui!

金钱奴

我是一位金钱奴。

小时候，爸爸叫我洗车，每次洗完汽车就会得到RM2.50；妈妈要我洗碗，然后就给我RM2.00；收拾客厅RM1.50，浇花RM0.50,抹窗RM1.00。有一天妈妈生病躺在床上，她要我去厨房拿杯水给他喝，我把手伸出来说“RM2.00 谢谢！”。

考UPSR前，爸爸说每拿一个A就奖赏我RM100。我很努力读书，拿了七个A，赚了RM700。PMR考试要到了，爸爸说每拿一个A就奖赏我RM500。我很努力读书，拿了十二个A，赚了RM6000。SPM考试要到了，爸爸说没能力奖赏我了，只要求我努力读书。没钱我干脆不读，反正没钱拿，没想到还拿了十四个臭鸭蛋回家。

长大了出来工作，我很努力的赚钱。没钱赚的事我不做，为何要苦了自己却没钱拿？
但是，女友离开了我因为她说我爱钱多过她；父母赶我出家门因为他们认为我对他们不孝；老板炒我鱿鱼因为他说请不起我这个金钱国王。我有很多朋友，他们喜欢和我喝茶吃东西，但是从来不要听我说关于我的事。

有一天，我的新女友骗走了我的财产和现款。我才发现我一生努力的赚钱没有给我很好的下场。原来很多东西是钱买不到的... 后悔？我一点都不后悔，因为在我没钱的时候，父母要我回到家里，女友原谅了我，也有人准备请我工作。虽然工资不高，但是我高兴的接受了。

我曾经是一位金钱奴。

The story of a boy

This boy is marching bravely towards his destiny...

He was born a bad-tempered person. But in every bits of life, he changed it slowly. It took times to change. Some people who don't understand just take him as a time bomb. He changed so much but only the person who give birth to him knows. Others, they just don't understand at all. His temper were shaped when he was an embryo, it wasn't his choice.

But this boy is not just a bad tempered boy, he is also an independence boy. He started to talk very early. He can just sit and play with toys without disturbing other people. He started to cycle to library and read books alone since he was 10 years old. When he finish his secondary school, he seek his own destiny. He apply for a government work and get education funded by government. He did the application all by himself. Before he left for studies, his father asked "If I ask you to stay, would you stay?" He said "no".

Now the boy is a man. Responsibilities he carries are much more than before. It is never like before. Challenges are far more ahead. Obstacles by obstacles he faced, but he only kept it in himself, proving his success in life. Every marks he left in his life is a success, uncountable... no one will know his successes, but still he succeed.

Compare to the past, this boy wasn't the same boy anymore. He changed. But no matter how much this boy had changed, no one knows except the one who give birth to this boy.

The boy said to himself, success is not to be measured by the wealth and money he had in his lifetime, but total of successes he had in winning himself.

He won his own wars...

我知道了...

你的泪水，转变成了欢乐的水滴。

当你快乐的告诉我你找到了你的快乐，我的心流了泪，快乐的泪水。这种是不能用言语解释的感觉，感觉一切发生过的忧伤，滴过的眼泪都很值得。这几天的担忧在这一瞬间变成了天堂里的欢乐，真的让我流泪了。这可能就是“感动”吧...

我知道了，你快乐了。