About a little girl

There was once a little girl who steps into secondary school. She was form 1 and i was form 5. She became my junior in the prefect board. We do had a chat sometimes, and that's it.

I saw her standing at the Sport Stadium early this year, when i was just posted back. I was a little surprise but i didn't had the chance to talk to her. I heard from others that she is a temporary teacher in school.

Today i met her on messenger and we had a chat.

It was such a long time. Now she is studying in a local university. I started to feel time passed so fast. It was only a flash distance away from the time in school.

Suddenly feel like I'm "old".

Kebebasan dalam Internet

Isu yang diwar-warkan kebelakangan ini mengenai Sekatan Internet atau dimaniskan dengan panggilan "filtration" dengan mengambil program "Green Dam" Negara China sebagai contoh. Saya sebagai seorang pengguna aktif internet dan seorang blogger yang mengakses internet lebih 10 jam sehari berasa begitu kesal dengan komplot yang bakal dilaksanakan ini.

Mengapakah saya mengenali cadangan ini sebagai komplot?

Selama ini janji-janji yang dilemparkan "pemimpin-pemimpin negara" begitu mengecewakan. Sedikit demi sedikit, keyakinan terhadap kata-kata mereka semakin terhakis. Dalam hal ini, rakyat tidak boleh disalahkan. Inilah naluri manusia, hilang keyakinan apabila dikecewakan.

Mereka mencadangkan maklumat-maklumat internet akan ditapis untuk menggelakkan bahan-bahan pornografik dan pemikiran-pemikiran yang mengugat keselamatan negara tersebar luas membisa minda rakyat Malaysia. Namun tujuan sebenar tindakan ini adalah untuk menghancur-kecaikan pihak pihak yang berani menentang mereka yang berpengaruh. Inilah taktik kotor yang menjijikkan, taktik kotor yang berselindung di belakang "kebaikan dan kemuliaan".

Motif memang jelas dan nyata:

1. MalaysiaToday milik Raja Petra Kamaruddin telah ditutup oleh MCMC kerana menyiarkan berita yang menjejaskan imej seorang pemimpin negara. Walaupun ditutup, laman ini telah dibangunakan sekali lagi dengan backup yang ada di server luar negara menyebabkan kuasa-kuasa besar ini gagal menutup mulut dan penanya.

2. Gutteruncensored telah menyiarkan gambar-gambar anak-anak "orang berkuasa besar" yang berpeluk-pelukan, berciuman dan meminum arak. Kuasa-kuasa besar sekali lagi mengarahkan laman ini dihalang untuk diakses oleh orang di Malaysia. Walaupun hingga kini laman ini masih dihalang, pengguna-pengguna masih bebas mengakses dan membaca dengan server by-pass.

3. Kekalahan teruk dalam pilihanraya yang lepas juga disalahkan ke atas internet yang menyebarkan fikiran-fikiran melalui penulisan dan video. PR lebih ke hadapan dan bijak dalam menggunakan kelebihan internet dalam pilihanraya ini membawa kekalahan kepada kuasa-kuasa besar.

Walaupun dikatakan bahawa cadangan ini hanya akan menghalang kandungan pornografik dan kandungan yang menjejaskan keselamatan negara tetapi saya kurang yakin kerana peluang ini akan diambil oleh kuasa-kuasa besar untuk menutup mulut sebahagian orang dalam internet, sebagaimana ISA digunakan untuk menahan musuh-musuh politik dalam Operasi Lalang dan Penahanan Hindraf, wakil pembangkang malah seorang pemberita, kononnya menangkapnya dengan ISA adalah untuk melindunginya. Rakyat dianggap bodoh dan banggang hingga sebegitu rupa.

Penggunaan internet perlulah berlandaskan "disiplin" dan "didikan", bukannya kawalan. Maka saya sebagai seorang blogger dan rakyat yang mempunyai hak bersuara ingin menyatakan bantahan saya terhadap cadangan untuk menyekat kebebasan penggunaan internet ini yang telah bercanggah dengan polisi Multimedia Super Coridor yang menjanjikan tiada sekatan ke atas internet akan dilakukan.


"Semakin kuat ia ditangkap, semakin susah ia dapat dipegang"

想念你

曾经有一段美好，我以为我忘了一干二净，
过去有一份想念，我以为我已失去了感觉，
以往有一次相爱，我以为我已经慢慢放下了。

我忘不了，
美好，想念，相爱...
我全忘不了。

那段美好，你还记得吗？
那份想念，你还回忆吗？
那份相爱，你还保留吗？

我的还完好无缺，留在心底最深处。
我要好好保留着它。

你呢？

This girl is cute!

I seldom praise other people, but not for this one. This little girl in the video is really cute!

Other people doesn't understand it is hard

It's getting harder to do voluntary works nowadays. Especially with restricted funds.

Public thought it is easy for us. It is not. Blood donation campaign had been contaminated with the consolation given by organizers. It became a must for blood donation campaign organizers to prepare gifts to donors like rice and hampers. Voluntary blood donation had inverted into "selling" of blood. So, "voluntary" and "donation" is already out of the talk.

Government had set up lots of voluntary units that had the same auxiliary duty as we had in the past. They recruited their members and give out free uniforms, training allowances, duty allowances and officer allowances. Government give professional trainings to them. We are left behind in terms of monies. They rather "volunteer" themselves in units that provide more welfare and eventually "more monies" than us.

We also faced financial problems on our own. Building started to worn out, lack of funds to pay salary, utility bills, unable to upgrade facilities due to financial constraints. When we go for flag sale once a year, members will get some long faces back then and complaint that who and who had said something not nice to them. Some kind souls do donate a lot, but that was only a few.

When disaster came, we can't render much help. We are lack of facilities, no boat, engine breakout, vehicle worn out. We get scolded by public and asked where did the money they donated gone to? We can only complaint quietly in our heart that their little coins were not even enough to support our basic office routine, not to say all those upgrades which need lots and lots of funds. But they don't understand.

During the last replacement of headquarter curtains, each committee members contributed their money and lastly enough after some collection among ourselves and some members working outside. It is rather sad that we contribute everything and still not supported by the community. A voluntary organization which financially is wholly dependent on the public had to struggle on with bits and bits of collection among the committee.

Some of the members left because of this. They prefer to stand at the other side to scold at us who still stand firm in our will to serve in this community. Some lost their strength to continue because of all the problems they faced.

We, the remainders, still stand firm and still full of faith in what we believe. We treat the problems as the challenges. We can't go astray from our mission. It is important to believe that we can succeed when we have the will. For now, we are climbing some thousands of staircases. It will be done step by step. We will hit the top someday, it is only the matters of time and will.

First upgrade we'd like to do is the ambulance. Upgrade and improve the patient transporting service. Change the secondary stretcher into cot trolley stretcher, add in a scoop stretcher, prepare a better mobile first aid kit, buy new immobilization kits and do an engine overhauling. But it is all about funds...

Please help...

你不是真正的快乐

近来喜欢听五月天的“你不是真正的快乐”。在网上听了又听，最后干脆下载来听。这首歌的MV有点难理解，但我觉得非常的有意义，而且深深的摸到了很多人的心声。那一幕幕从笑转变成哭的转折，是人生里实实在在的现实，也是这首MV独特的地方。每个人进入了社会圈子，也直接陷进了这个“不是真正快乐”的陷阱，难免的。所以很多人都赞成，童年是最开心的时候。

那我是不是真正的快乐？

在首都工作了两年，很多快乐的事发生在我的生命中。这些快乐的事，其实都是很短暂的，因为回到家房间，关上了门，快乐也被关上了。那时生命觉得空虚，忙碌根本就不能遮盖空虚。回来之后，空虚好像有些离我而去，但不时之间还是会靠近它，拥抱它。

但我能肯定的，不是一起欢乐呐喊的时光让我感觉快乐，而是友谊和体谅为生命带来一波又一波的冲劲和力量。回到家里来，只遗憾没能把这群朋友一起打包用货运寄回来。这一群朋友，是我能肯定的快乐。

那我是不是真正的快乐？我不知道。

Teaching First Aid in SJKC Nan Chiew

This morning we taught first aid in SJK(C) Nan Chiew.

Had a simple closing ceremony after that.

Each of us were given a paper bag with these little cuties inside.
It was something different from usual.

I decided to give this cutie to a cute friend of mine.
I won't use it anyway.