nothing much...

It's been a while i didn't post anything on this blog. During this while, I really don't have anything much to view, to express or to complaint. Life is just so normal and calm, like the sea with little splashes of waves. However, this kind of calmness makes me feeling uneasy. It's just a feeling, nothing much.

When i write the odometer reading of the transporter this morning, i just realise it's October. Few more weeks later, end of the year holiday will start. This means that i already spend a year teaching here after coming back from West Malaysia. Coming back here, i gain something and lose something.

It's kind of sad when i think back of my courier future in West Malaysia. Now i didn't got to teach what I'm best in. I also miss all the friends back then. They are really good and kind people that break my previous view that West Malaysian residents are cocky. Yet, if i didn't come back, i won't be enjoying my life in RC. The old sayings are true, "no lose no gain".

Lately i get some chances to transport an old lady to local hospital, clinic and specialist hospital for her treatment. She had some serious disease that makes her cannot live by her own. Her daughter took care of her. Her daughter wash the wounds of bed sore, clean her mother's faeces and emptying urine pack. I start to think that life is short. I tried hard to help them, although i can't do much. I asked a friend of mine who is a doctor-to-be, "will you feel fed up with life since you see so many deaths in your workplace?"I balanced up the feeling by reading some books on emergency cihldbirth.

Yea, true! Life is short. From the time i started to remember things till now, it's 25 years already. What have i really done during this 25 years? Born as a little baby, and in the speed of eye flashes, on the bed as a wizened sick old man. Between life and death, it's very short.

After realising so many things, now i only hope i can do as much work as possible during this short time before the call, help people as much as possible. We human remember about blessings only when good things came. The chances given to help is also a blessing, troubles we met is also a blessing. I should thanks all the blessings given, from a good family, kind friends, to the hardships and challenges encountered.

There are still many things circling my mind but unable to express it out.
Life is hard and life is short. That's life.